Sunday, October 2, 2016


last night,
i was in a hotel near by the beach.
i was having a vacation with my sister. it was a beautiful sunny day until
there was a group of people from the yacht who was about to land by the shore
when the sea water level rise up near the hotel.
it was a wonder but i didn't mind it anyway.
i was curious about why the water rose that high and was it normal?
there were lots of strangers and bakasyonistas in that place too. there was actually yachts and small boats in the sea.
then suddenly, there was a huge storm.

i saw the yachts and boats dancing in the sea.
i saw huge waves.
there was rain.
i was just looking at them.
until i saw people falling from the yacht.
i saw people died from the shipwreck.

it was horrible.

the next day,
when the sea was peaceful once again,
i saw all those yachts and boats upside down.
i saw dead bodies floating in the sea.
it was sad. very, very sad.

all those people. they died. in my dream.

Monday, September 26, 2016

killing me softly

every time i find myself in a situation that no longer
 excites me or makes me happy, 
i always ask myself.. "should i stay? is it worth it?"
because i don't see how i can work well in a job that
i no longer have passion with.

people said,
"you're job's too easy other than the other people, then you'll just quit?"
they said, i just live near the company. 
unlike the other employee(s) who struggles themselves just to go the office, 
i on the other side have a vehicle which brings and fetches me every now and then. 
then they said, these people didn't give up, then you'll give up?

please. just stop the comparison.

they said i should not quit my job just because i'm not happy about it.
they said i should not give up just because its my job.
they said i'm lucky enough to be working in a big company with a nice name.
they said i'm lucky of the position i have.
they said i'm lucky i work in an office.

i am actually grateful with what i have now.
its just that, i don't like being treated like a robot.

i am doing my job pretty well, yet i don't get any recognition
i made mistake once or twice, it made the bosses crazy

dear bosses,
learn to handle your people
we don't need to get stressed and pressured
we need motivation

your soon to be ex employee